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Malaysia Trip!

2009-08-04T00:27:00.013+08:00

Malaysia Trip!

Wow~ Im back from Malaysia xD Awesome trip! 6days n 5nights.
Supposed to be 3days de =.= but our plan keep chging LOLLL.
1st of all~ My bday is coming so im the queen!~ so i asked my mom can meet 2 frens in KL n Muar~ wakaka~
and we did!~ weee hope can meet again! LOL of coz there wasnt much time to spend together. coz rushing bk to singapore @@
dunno WHO nid to go sch tmr LOLL k lar i din blame u oso xD
Really Great Trip! I injured my back ^^ so awesome~ injured summore sure end up in the hospital forever and ever n ever n ever~ ^^ ROFL!

Okay thats all xD
Missing my Lui <3

2009-06-24T14:04:00.005+08:00

Running out of brain cells here x.x"
why is it so hard to compose a song?!
lyrics, at least Im half way there.
but the melody, really omg lar =.=
I really wonder how those composers compose songs for singers.
Need to be Genius at music and Brilliant in all kinds of Instrument. *-*
I mean seriously, how do they even start!?
how do they know if this keys even fit into the song @@
Im really BRAIN DEAD, BRAIN DRY AND BRAIN OUT. X_X"

2009-06-23T03:37:00.017+08:00

You know.. sometimes I just wonder, Can I achieve all the things I want in my life? Be Successful? Be a Winner?

If I can succed all those. Its really a dream come true.

When I was young, I didnt know what I want in my life.
Its like a Caterpillar in the tree. You never know who you'll be. Can't go far but you can always dream.
Well, I was a Tweety Bird back then. Dont really know what I want.
But as time passes by. I release that I am in love with "Music".
So why not become a Musician? Its kinda fun and at the same time can make tones of money.
$_$ ahem*
So a Caterpillar cant go far, but can always dream.
So now the Caterpillar became a Butterfly.
Got your wings,now you can't stay.
Gotta take those dreams and make them all come true.
errrhem*

Lately I've been thinking alot about my Music Career.
I became frustrated and moody. Sorry if I make you all worried. =[
There is lots of things that I have to endure.
Obstcale to be overcome, Roads that needs to be straight.

Hannah Montana The Movie really make me feel awake. I mean not that kind of "awake".
I mean like Wake up from my lalaland and be Serious.
If I have to go Overseas to study just to get my Diploma in Music, I WILL GO, even if it takes 3 years!!
Theres no more time to waste!
I cant excel my Career here in Singapore.
Most likely it will Overseas Studies, Where? I dont know yet.

This Song ; Butterfly Fly Away and The Climb by Miley Cyrus really touch my heart.
Although her story is about 2 different lifes, but it does apply on my life too, well part of it.
Hear them. The songs are at my media player.
1. Butterfly Fly Away
2. The Climb

This 2 are the major songs. Theres still few more songs after "The Climb".
They are awesome!!

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Butterfly Fly Away Lyrics
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You tuck me in,turn out the light
Left me safe and sound at night
Little girls depend on things like that

Brushed my teeth and combed my hair
Had to drive me everywhere
You were always there when I looked back

You had to do it all alone
Make a living,make a home
Must have been as hard as it could be

And when I couldn't sleep at night
Scared things wouldn't turn out right
You would hold my hand and sing to me

Caterpillar in the tree
How you wonder who you'll be
Can't go far but you can always dream

Wish you may and wish you might
Don't you worry,hold on tight
I promise you there will come a day
Butterfly fly away

Butterfly fly away(Butterfly fly away)
Got your wings,now you can't stay
Take those dreams and make them all come true

Butterfly fly away(Butterfly fly away)
You've been waiting for this day
All along and know just what to do

Butterfly,Butterfly,ButterflyButterfly fly away
Butterfly fly away
Butterfly fly away

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The Climb Lyrics
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I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreamin
But theres a voice inside my head sayin
You'll never reach it

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels lost with no direction
My faith is shakin
But I, I gotta keep tryin

Gotta keep my head held high
Theres always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an up-hill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there.
Ain't about what's waitin on the other side.
It's the climb.

The struggles I'm facing.
The chances I'm taking.
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I'm not breaking.
I may not know it but these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah.
I Just gotta keep going.
And I, I gotta be strong.
Just keep pushing on 'cause,

There's always gonna be another mountain.
I'm always gonna wanna make it move.
Always gonna be an uphill battle
But Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose.
Ain't about how fast I get there.
Ain't about what's waitin on the other side.
It's the climb.

Yeah-yeah

There's always gonna be another mountain.
I'm always gonna wanna make it move.
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes you're gonna have to lose.
Ain't about how fast I get there.
Ain't about what's waitin on the other side
It's the climb

Yeah-yeah-yea

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith
Baby

It's all about
It's all about the climb
Keep your faith
Keep your faith

Whoa, O Whoa.
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There are few more songs from Miley Cyrus after those 2 songs.
Enjoy.

Why

2009-04-26T22:55:00.020+08:00

Why Why Why????

Why Why Why??? Why is there so many Why in my head??? What and Why am I always thinking about??? I have no bloody idea man.. Just like yesterday, for no reason I just feel like crying.. I guess I have a new nickname for myself.. Cry baby =/ Seriously.. sometimes I just really wanna open my brain and check, see if theres any lose screws or the wires has been shock circuited =_=v I dont even know why I feel like this.. Can anybody tell me whats wrong with me??? I really want to know.. Just thinking about my problems really feels like punching the wall again... haiz.. but.. something has stop me from doing that.. cause I think about my Sotong Family o.o

Cause of them I will save my poor hand from breaking into pieces. Cause of them I fell I am someone important to them in my life, and that is my Dua Siao Weh Gor and My Dearest Baobei Luilui. My Dua Siao Weh Gor will always ask me "what happen? or u ok mou?" when he sees my msn pm something wrong, and sometimes he will call me just to chit chat~ He never fails his task as a Gor although we are not blood related o.o thanks Gor~ appreciate it x] and my Dearest Baobei Luiliui, everytime when I think about her, it just put a smile on my face. She need not to do anything to please me, but just to see her online and happy everyday~ and I never regreted accepting her as my Luilui~ Love you so much~ Muacks~ <333 Dont jealous gor~ I also love you xDDD

But now.. it seems that I am not in the right mood to face them.. I have no idea why but.. sometime inside me just keep kepting me away from them T.T and I also lost my "Oldself" o.o Feels like I am a Newself but in a negative way x_x Who can help me get back my "Old-me" ?? Anyone??? o_o I guess not~ Cause it is just me myself and I~ I dont know what fucking problem Im having and Im really falling apart x]

Wordless

2009-04-22T21:08:00.004+08:00

Wordless

Im nt gonna talk alot abt tis topic coz the feeling is wordless and unexpressed.. Tearing my unspoken tears out.. tearing my unexpressed feelings out........ I've been thinking alot lately abt whether should i let go my game life.. been thinking abt tis for abt a month n i still cant think through it.. ==" i dont know my game life should include my Sotong Family in a not.. should i? "Sotong Family for life" they said.. who am i kidding.. they live so far away from me n still call family? o.o i wonder.......... i wonder wad does their Family means...... caring for each other call family? or very close to each other call family??? i really wonder........... nw my mood is kinda low n negative ._.v is nt fun to keep thinking things liddat.. Do u knw hw many brain cells died just by thinking these stupid things???..... anyway i wont go further.. i will end here.

Changes

2009-04-05T20:22:00.010+08:00

Changes Made

Well.. My life has gone complicated since end of March.. I totally change into another person o.o which I also notice it.. Change to good or bad I dont know, I let you guys be the judges xDDD I have been buzy lately about my new life. I am here to tell you guys. You guys may think is a joke or something but its true. o.o

The starting of my new life has been really tough. Alot of tears as been shed, misunderstood and hardwork. After I dropped out of college, I have been locking myself at home like a prisoner with nothing but my computer. And unknowingly I have been addicited to my computer for the past 3 and a half years. O.O My mom has been telling and asking me to go out to the outside world where you can feel and touch things,(feel and touch... -.-") not like computer. At first.. I didnt take her word seriously, I thought she was too free, just wanna disturb me. (like she always do -.-v) So I just continued my life...

Until one day, I thought of going out to buy some clothes. And thats where the incident occurred. I didnt know by saying that kind of words will offend people. I really didnt know. Till my mom confronted and I feel like crying, but I didnt cry in the car.. I hold my tears till I reached home.(Its not easy to hold your tears ==") Reach home already, my mom started counselling me and of course cry like shit lar lolx. And thats where I realised, I have been prisoned at home for so long till I have problem expressing my thoughts.(My english also sux already -.-) I didnt really meant what I said but it just came out, out of frustration and anger. And it came to a conclusion that I have to lose weight =.=" well thank god I only have to lose about 18kg more haha~ And I have to choose either 1, Computer or Exercise. Took me quite awhile to think.. Cause I dont wish to leave all my friends right now. Plus it is so sudden. o.o Especially my Ling Ahlui and that Siao Weh Gor T.T Miss you two alot. <3> Ahem* But if I dont exercise now, somehow I still gotta slim down. I cant be fat forever lol...

Do you know fat people, their self-esteem is very low? o.o They are so sensitive on how people think and look at them. Practically, mine was very low, and its still very low now lolx ~.~v So, I have made up my mind to exercise everyday x.x" only for a few months I think. I cant tell excatly how many months, it depends on how fast I can slim down. And thats not all. o.o

I have been lock at home like a prisoner for 3 and a half years with my computer. Definitely my Character and Attitude has changed. I became more self-centered and proud unknowingly o.o" thats very de bad desu nehhh~ ~.~v Facing the outside world is totally different =.=" Everything was so new o.o (Im so outdated T.T") well.. I guess thats what I get for staying at home for 3 and a half years =/ So now, I really wan to turn things around, by starting with my weight and my attitude first. Then my Music Career. Done my speech LOL~ Will blog again if I have the time. Byebye~ :D

Back Blogging

2009-03-27T01:50:00.006+08:00
Piano is my Life

YO~ Im back~ seldom blog nw haha~ =D so~ its friday n 1:52am n im blogging rite now -.- I should go to slp so tat my time slping time wont be hay wire -.- dunno spell correct a not.. BT anyway~ its been almost a months since I lefted ITE. My life nw is very simple... eat, slp, wake up, bath, computer, piano and sumtimes on9 gaming -.- .. boring hor my life? the only time when i leave the house is when im going for my piano lesson n mah jiong -.-" seriously.. i nid a life.. when u r too free like me, u wish u have sumthing to do.. bt when u r too buzy.. u wish u r free ==" well.. tats human =/ Now the only thing im focusing on is my piano..

And speaking abt my piano o.o i got alot of things to learn n remember.. example: the Keys.. gotta rmb which is which keys n wad key is tat.. n the Inversions the Suspended Chords, Major and Minor n nid lots n lots of practices.. my mom said at least practices 3 hours a day.. =.=" u do knw 3 hours is very very very longgggggg, nt to mention time passes very slow when u r practicing.. bt when u r practicing the song u like.. time flys ==" im currently practicing Love Story - Taylor Swift. its hard, bt i gotta be patience.. Practice over n over again can be bored.. bt when u imagine when u can play tat song.. u will feel like~ wahhhh~ so nice~~~~~ so shuang~~~~ am i rite? LOLLLLL Piano is my life rite now, if i dont continue learning my piano, i dunno wad will i do in future.. i gotta at least persue my Piano in Diploma then i think wad i wanna do next..

I still promise my fren i would teach her piano~ haha~ well~ a promise is a promise xDDD and i nid to buy a new keyboard set a.s.a.p!!! the old one is nt so old~ old till im bored of looking at it. LOLLL!! ahem* anyway.. i still have a long way ahead of me.. God, pls help me focus more on my piano.. im almost out of track x_x" im so dry.. nid ur word.. well tats all for nw~ will blog again when i have the time =] cya~

GoodBye ITE

2009-02-06T21:15:00.027+08:00
Goodbye ITE...

I think is my fault tat I announce tis last minute.. I saw everybody's sad faces. Jocasta, Elena, Serene, Wendy n Jasmine. I feel so guilty.. Even though I told them my reason for leaving.. bt my reason cant them satisfied.. Everybody.. Im really sry for tis last minute announcement..!! I din know tat it will hurt tis bad.. bt I thank Jasmine.L, Ivy, Chyi Ling, Valerie and Valerie's Mom for the wishes they gave me. =]

Audrey my Darling.. Im so sry tis is so sudden.. At first.. I wanted to tell u tis sooner.. bt Im afraid tat u will brusted into tears like u did today..I really dunno wad to say or do to make u feel happy.. But 1 thing is for sure!! Im gonna teach u piano once I graduate from Piano in Diploma!! THAT'S A PROMISE I CAN MAKE!! Even though, Im nt in the same College with u anymore. Before we get into tis college.. we already make a promise to be together till we graduate bt I guess I cant graduate with u. Im sry that I have break tis promise .. bt I will still be in Singapore.. so no nid to get upset ok my dear? =] We will still be meeting each other when we have the time~ or u still can contact me: Msn, Sms or Call. Ok my dear =]

It has already been comfirmed. Im really leaving.. Bt I thank god tat I have met u guys. =]

To My ITE Classmate[s]:
Although Im leaving tis college. bt I will forever rmb u guys. My memories together with u all will never fate away. I will cherish u all as one of my best girl groups ever =] If wanna ask me anything abt OSA or any other things, feel free to call me ok?~ I will help u as much as I can =] Love u guys~ x3

To Audrey My Darling:
Darling, I may nt be with u forever. Bt no matter where I go, We will still share the same sky. =] Still be contacting each other, still will be going out together. If u are facing any difficulty.. Feel free to sms or call me. u know my hp is on 24hours. I will always be there for u =] so don put on tat sad little face already. Cheer up!! I will keep you in my memory!!~ haha~ LOVE U ALOT!!~ MUACKSS!!~ <333~

I WILL KEEP YOU ALL IN MY MEMORY!!~ <3

Second Day In ITE

2009-01-06T20:16:00.007+08:00
Second Day In ITE

Ok~ the first item today was a Talk By Police at the Auditorium n wow the Auditorium is soooo cosyyyy really can slp inside there LOL anyway the talk is abt Drug Abuse n Gang Fight.. Drugs like sniffing gule.. n the police invited those ex-prisoner to share their testimonial abt their story n life in prison.. very interesting LOL ok so after the talk.. we head back to class n ar.. the class advisor start to collect money for our Course Material is $100 for the whole year wooo~ LOLLL then after collecting already.. he start to talk abt skipping sch so call as disciplinarily lar.. then ar.. 1100 - 1200 is the time to choose our CCA~ wooo~ i chose Guitar Club n Camp Brigde Leader.. actually wanted to choose Archery bt their training days is on Saturday n it starts at 9am zzz.. haiz.. anyway.. after tat..we go back to our class n our teacher decided to let us go for lunch earlier coz by the time it reaches 1 oclock theres quite less food left.. so our teacher gave us 2 hour lunch break LOLL cool rite =x

During lunch time i get to jell along with my classmate LOL gud time to chit chat eh~ so i hear them chat~ i din knw wad to talk so i kept quiet @@ .. during tat chit chatting i get to knw them better as in their family, hw many siblings they have LOL by the way.. they r all chinese girls LOL sooo anyway~ after chatting we head back to our class n from there we start to hear teacher explaining tis n tat n summore tis summore tat LOLL he talked for almost 2hours @@ n i was wondering.. y isnt he thirsty LOL!! after the talk so call as nag we recevied our Training Notes.. woot 4 thick notes LOLL n theres more coming soon @@ .. i guess ITE is nt bad when u get to knw ur classmates =/

So tmr is Wednesday.. hell man.. is gonna be a LONG n TIRED day ==" i think by the time i reach home.. i will crawling back to my room LOLLLL .. so tats call for today ya~ cya~ x)

First Day In ITE

2009-01-05T22:40:00.008+08:00
First Day In ITE

The first day in ITE was.. miserable? ... i got into different classes with my frenz.. well.. tat is expected.. anyway.. the first venue was in the Function Hall.. tats where we gather n look for our classes.. n tats where we seperate.. then we settle down n they show us a video abt our sch things.. after tat.. they dismiss us back to our classes n from there we get to meet our Form Teacher aka Class Advisor.. Expected is a HE nt a SHE .. well.. nt bad lar.. still can joke around.. then we went through our timetable.. speaking of timetable really fuck sia.. especially wednesday.. 8am - 5pm zzz fucking tired sia..
Monday 12pm - 5pm
Tuesday 2pm - 5pm
Wednesday 8am - 5pm
Thursday 8am - 2pm
Friday 8am - 12:30pm
Zzz 3days end at 5pm...5PM!!! WTFFF!! zzz so late.. Wednesday is the WORSE!!! zzz 9hours.. really fuck sia.. thank god tis timetable is temporary only.. i hope to get a better timetable zzz 5pm end.. really fuck.. anyway.. after tat we had our lunch.. the canteen was very crowded.. so many students.. i din get to eat coz too many ppl.. lazy Q up n im nt hungry + no appetite.. appetite gone man c the lanjiao timetable.. so anyway.. after lunch.. we had Ice Breaking Game.. it was fun~ bt i kena forfeit.. LOL as punshiment gotta do butt writting LOL =="
After tat we head to the LRC aka Learning Resource Centre.. is sumthing like a library.. well.. we was late.. so we only hear half of the presentation.. anyway i wasnt listening to it.. during tat time i felt so slpy.. almost fell aslp.. tat stupid old man talk until so slow.. keep rounding abt in the bushes.. throw shoe at him.. lol n the last item is Teambuilding.. is sumthing like Amazing Race.. walao so tired.. run up n down the whole college like sum kind of monkey n we are nt allow to use the lift too == bloody tired man..
And then we finally get to go home -.- so tired after all these activity.. we meet up at the atm machine in sch 1st then set off.. took bus 31 to tampines interchange.. then take bus 3 to punggol.. the bus jounery is was abt 1hour+ zzz sit till butt pain n numb.. imagine everyday liddat.. summore moving to woodlands soon.. wtf.. if i continue like tis.. i will have a miserable life in ite soon.. so far i dunno abt the studies yet.. nid to buy materials n stuff cost abt $100..well.. tats all for The First Day In ITE.. Lets c wads next for tmr.. cya..

YEAH!! SIMEI!

2008-12-27T20:45:00.020+08:00
YEAH!! SIMEI!!

Muwahahaha!! finally got into Simei ITE!! XDDD IM SO FREAKING HAPPY MAN!! I got into the ITE tat i wanted!! woooo~ really thank god x) Many ppl din get into the course or campus they wan due to their bad results.. Well.. i only knw tat audrey n a few of my frenz got into Simei.. bt different course.. haiz.. i hope to meet sum of my frenz same course as me.. if nt.. i will have to make new frenz all over again n tats bad.. im nt gud in making new frenz.. n nt to mention the Enviroment.. gotta get use to it too.. Im moving to Woodlands next year..currently staying in punggol.. n my ITE is at Bedok.. so.. from Woodlands to Bedok.. can u imagine? is so dam bloody far!! Wooot!! Gotta wake up dam early leiiiii.. i don think ITE will start at 7 oclock ba .___. if it really start at 7 oclock.. im gonna have the worse nightmare ever!! If its nt~ then thank god~ no nid to wake up so early~ I heard tat they start around.. 9 oclock...... still too early for me LOLLL i really hope they start around 11 oclock~ so i can have more slp =x ya i knw~ im a pig~ <($(oo)$)>v A Money Face Pig~ oink oink~ kaka~ xP

Anyways~ My life in ITE will start real soon on 5 Jan.. I really wonder hw is it gonna be..whether it will suck or rocks.. is like.. entering to a new world in my life o.o really excited n scared.. bt hey~ im nt alone in tis world of mine~ I still got my Darling Audrey n my frenz x) New World, New Life, New Style n nt to mention New Uniforms O.O wow~ they have different design n colour for shirts n skirts~ Cool man~ for normal ITE they only have 1 type of uniforms.. bt tis ITE tat im going is different~ other courses like Beauty Therapy, Hair Fashion & Design n Nursing got their own uniforms.. tat suck LOLLL =x

I thought ITE rules is different from Secondary rules.. Ya its different.. bt different by abit only ==" still cant have coloured hair =( tat sux man.. i tot coloured hair is allowed.. bt i guess is nt.. lucky i din dye my hair yet.. if nt i will have to dye it back black again..i can kiss my dreams of dying my hair Goodbye T_T.. Well~ i guess tats all for tis blog~ SIMEI ITE HERE I COME!! MUWAHAHAHAHHAA~~ xP

P.S: Will be editing this blog again.. Cause not sure of the details..

Result for Campus

2008-12-24T21:10:00.007+08:00

Which Campus am I going?

Haiz..Christmas is here means Chinese New Year is coming~ n oso it means holiday will be over soon T_T.. i left like abt.. 2 more days till i get my results abt my campus x_x!! i really hope it will be Simei College East!! x( coz.. my choice is like.. only 1 of my course will be at Simei ITE Campus .. so is like.. so less chance T_T I discussed the courses n campus together with my mom.. n the result is tis

Here are the Courses and Campus that i have choosen:

Service Skills (Office) - College East
Pastry and Baking - College West (Clementi)
Culinary Skills (W) - College West (Clementi)
Digital Animation - College Central (MacPherson)
DMD (Interactive Media) - College West (Ang Mo Kio)

ok i knw =/ my choice is very less.. coz i failed my maths T_T they given us 10 choices bt i only can think abt 5 x___x" n as u can c.. College East only have 1.. so very less chance ~__~ Although Simei Campus is dam far away from my home.. the travel jounery from my house to simei is like.. 1hour+ i think x_x bt im still willing to wake up early everyday just to get into tat Campus..Ahhhh!! God!! help me pls!! i wan Simei ITE College East!!! T____T y i wan simei campus so badly becoz they are the latest, newest n advance technology!! everything there is so clean n new!! I MUST GET INTO SIMEI ITE!! N EVERYBODY IS AIMING FOR TIS CAMPUS TOO!! SO!! FIRST COME FIRST SERVE!! XDD if i don get into tat campus.. May God Bless Me.. Amen T__T..

P.S: Audrey!! im REALLY sry if i cant get into simei T_T

Merry Christmas

2008-12-24T20:05:00.014+08:00

CHRISTMAS!!

ITS CHRISTMAS!! WOOO YEAH!!~~ Presents!!Wahhh~ @.@~ so gud rite?~ LOL bt apparently.. tis year i got no present =( haha~ bt i have a wonderful christmas celebration dinner together with my family x) its been a long time seen we had dinner together.. tats the best my mom can gv us~ haha~ appreciate it mom~ Muacks~

Tis year my christmas is a simple one.. although is just a simple one.. bt its satisfed enuf for me x) christmas doesnt mean nid to celebrate in a high class restaurant or buy sum expensive gives to show one another u care.. instead.. Christmas is abt Love Enjoy Peace n Sharing tat we gv to one another :D

Well~ tis is for my family only~ :D i will be celebrating with my dad soon =/ together with his new wife n my grandma.. =_= zzz don feel like going..haiz.. celebrating xmas, new year n chinese new year together.. all in 1 package :D so i will only be seeing them for 1 time~ thank god x)

And last bt nt least!! MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL MY BELOVED FRENS!! GAME AND REAL LIFE!! XDD LOVE U GUYS LOADS!!! MUACKSS!!

P.S: Thank you Mom for the satisfying and happy dinner =] I Love you Mom!! <333